First of all, I give thanks to Heavenly Father Christ Ahnsahnghong and Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) for letting me share the fragrance of Zion and also thanks to Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) for granting me Her special love.
Let me share my experience having realized the love of Heavenly Mother (God the Mother). Although I belong to the youth group in the World Mission Society Church of God (WMSCOG) now, this is something that happened to me at the time when I was a middle school student and it was less than 6 months since I had been baptized. The branch church where I started my life of faith after being baptized was a smaller Church of God (WMSCOG) which consisted of about 150 members. The church was so small that the student group to which I belonged could not help but be small. All the students who attended services had faith and the student group consisted of gospel workers delivering the words of God. In total there were about 10 Male and female students.
There was a sister who took care of me when I attended meetings and services in Zion. Now looking back at her, I remember how patient she was with me and how much she helped me since I was a new member who was sinful in nature. However, I was only a middle school student who was too young to think deeply about it. Her personality and mine were so different that I, sometimes, complained about she treated me and thought “What on earth was wrong with her? I was considerate of her, so shouldn’t she be considerate of me?” In the course of that kind of thought encroaching my mind little by little, the most difficult thing to me was attending student meetings. The number of students who attended the meetings was only two – me and the sister. If just one out of the two could not make it, the other would participate in the meeting alone, which was inconvenient to me. I thought that attending the meeting alone was uncomfortable and inconvenient not only to me but also to her. When I could not make it because of supplementary lessons, such as private educational institute or appointment with friends I informed her of the reason in advance. I also asked her to give me a heads up if she was going to be absent beforehand. However, she did not let me know if she wasn’t going to be there, which ended up with me taking out my pent-up feelings on her.
One day I made up my mind and joined the meeting. That day, I wasn’t feeling good because whenever I saw her all the pent-up feelings started to gradually come out. I made up my mind. “This will be the last meeting and I will not take part in the student meetings anymore. Then we’ll see how she does.”
At the same time, I thought Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) would be sad but I made up my mind filled with arrogant thoughts such as “Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) forgot me so that’s why she’s just left me in this painful situation. Since the Bible says to keep the ‘Sabbath day holy’ I will attend service but not join the meetings.” At that moment, I got a phone call. It was my aunt. My aunt led my mother to Zion; whenever she had a spiritual enlightenment she would often call my mother or me. I went outside to take the call during the meeting. I used to cut the call short by saying “I’m in the middle of a meeting.” But, oddly enough, that day, the conversation got longer.
“My niece, do you know this verse? Have you heard these words in the Bible?” The verse that she read me to me on the phone was Isa 49:14.
Isa 49:14 “But Zion said, “The LORD has forsaken me, the Lord has forgotten me. Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.”
Among the words, “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!” really touched my heart. I resolved not to join meeting because I thought Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) might have forgotten me and left me in pain. However, before following through on my resolution, Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) conveyed Her heart to me. The ending was so obvious that I do not need to mention it. After that, I went to the meetings with gratitude and joyfulness. Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) has not forgotten me and I will not forget Her. If I just hear the words that Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) has not forgotten me I feel all warm inside.
I do not believe that it was a coincidence that my aunt rang my phone and read the words to me. I know that that was Heavenly Mother (God the Mother)’s hand taking hold of me. The experience gave me an opportunity to believe in Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) who is always with us spiritually, listens to our prayers, helps us when we are having difficulties or are in trouble, and not just who the Bible testifies to and is in S. Korea. It is the verse that I often look up when I think of Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) or when I am troubled or having a hard time. Those words become a regular verse to show other members in need of consolation. I give thanks to Heavenly Mother (God the Mother) for embracing this immature child with great love and not hating me, for allowing me to work in Zion as a youth after getting through my days of being a student. I truly give thanks to Christ Ahnsahnghong and God the Mother. I promise to be a mature child with steadfast faith and a good daughter who practices filial piety. Heavenly Father and Heavenly Mother (God the Mother), thank you.